Dreaming...

Well, MY time...is coming!  In about 1 1/2 months, I will turn 40.  I will have the days, "to do" with what I wish. To do, the cooking, to do the cleaning, to do the laundry...(ect., ECT.  ;)  :)  17 days, of HALF days...were just NOT enough...  *I started, getting RID of a lot of items, the kids have outgrown.  *Still going...  But along with all THAT exercise; will be, TIME...to "start" whipping ME in to shape!  I've been WAITING looong, & HARD!!  Going to check in to a discounted rate, @ the Y.  (NEED that pool...& the weights! ;)  Been quite preoccupied with a long lost loved one ... to NO avail...  :/ :(  A recent pic, (though I already knew of my 'plight;')  made me want to cry.  Despite, being with close family...the "form-fitting" top, & SIDE view shot (of most of the rest) was, shall we say...disturbing!  :0  & ... (I THOUGHT) I LIKED that outfit... This, is not how I want to be viewed, OR remembered...*I'm not one to cringe, @ a few extra pounds, but...?!?!!!  :/  *You know those posts on fb, where they point out...(how you feel you look like when you're running) VS, HOW you "actually" LOOK...SAME "DIFFERENCE!"  :p